Trigger : Sexual harassment ⚠️
Sometimes the Lord will have you sharing your deepest secrets in order to remove shame.
I feel no shame, nothing I have experienced will keep me in bondage. For a week I’ve been feeling this pressed in my spirit. So as I have gone through the Lord healing my heart, I pray you take the season for the Lord to heal yours.
It doesn’t always makes sense why you are picked as a target for the enemy to use someone to defile you.
Sometimes it makes perfect sense because if you attacked in your youth you are less likely to be solid in spirit and in your mind as you get older.
In 2020, i spoke about a sexual harassment that occurred to me in November,2019. Funny to see some people assume things about my sexual history than to simply ask.
- Assumption that I’m a virgin because someone hurt me.
- Well my question to you is….. should I have became hyper sexual after encountering people that only saw me as a body?
- Should I have been comfortable with harassment as a teenage when someone tried to get me into prostitution.
- Would you be surprised if I said it was a woman?
- She made her girlfriend stop as the car followed me down the street for a quarter of a mile asking if I had a father?
- She asked if I had a father and if my father was in my life to see if I was broken enough to be a victim.
- She asked me those questions to see if I was hurt and damaged enough to open that door of hurt and pain the enemy opened in her life.
- I was 14
I was 14, when I was followed for about 40mins
From a guy I’ve never met, never seen, and will probably never see again. As he came behind me, putting his hands down my pants. The way I screamed, I cried, i screamed, i screamed and screamed and screamed. Boy o boy did I cry, i cried and cried and cried and cried some more. I can’t remember most of the things said but I remember crying and when he let me go, I walked and cried. I didn’t run, i couldn’t. I enter my house and laid in bed and cried. As soon as my mom got home she wanted to first yell at me. But when she saw my face and my tears, I saw her face change, i saw her face shift into fear like what happened. I muzzled my words and she took me in the car to show her where it happened. She tired she truly did. But i was still made to walk home for 42 mins every day. Continuing the fear and panic that was already there.
Oooo I’ve been followed, I’ve been recorded, I’ve been harassed by people who I can see the lust in their eyes.
Another thing though, I’ve fought. Chileeeeeee have I fought for myself. I stand ten toes down in defending myself because who else will do it? Would you leave your place of comfort to help me? Or is it none of your business.
I’ve had 1 and when I say 1. I mean 1 guy friend that actually block an old man from harassing me as I walked to my car. I was 20.
One thing for sure, I don’t like a lustful spirit, I can see it strongly in people because it’s attacked me. I gave my life to Christ at 14, fall of 2014, with no direction, no one to ask for advice or to teach me. I gave my life, I’ve seen him preserve my life. I’ve seen him heal any form of rejection. It didn’t come from not being chosen, it came from standing on the Lord and seeing other judge me because of that. Crazy that people say Christians are judgemental when it’s nothing like some shunning you because you don’t smoke 5 blunts in a day or you don’t down a whole bottle of alcohol. I don’t need the depressant or enhancements, my personality speaks for itself. Thorough and effective for the generation of people, God has called me to love.
May you truly heal from the hurt other people did to you when you were most vulnerable. As i share my experience, I release all shame and hatred towards anyone that decides to chose me as a victim. Sorry but the damage you thought you did only cause for a 🔥 fire to come out of my mouth to help usher others away from that brokenness.
In our weakness, he is made strong. 💪🏿 When you finally realize that you are broken and need Jesus, that’s where your journey begins.
Don’t apologize to me. 🫠 “I’m so sorry that happened to you” well I’m sorry that other men and women have experienced it too.
I don’t need the apology, go and apologize to any man or woman, you didn’t believe because it doesn’t “seem” possible. Or the girl has always given you “hoe” vibes. 😮💨
May we not be a generation that continues to live in silence because of what strangers will say.
Now that you know my story what will you do? Harass me? 😂
Will you beat me up? 😮💨
May the Lord vindicate me 😌
Oh and yes people deserve to be under the prison. Under the prisons of all prisons. ⚠️
But from my heart, I’ve forgiven. 💕
As the Lord leads, go through the healing process, even if it hurts, even if you’re crying 40days and 40 nights. Go through because in the end… HE WILL SHOW YOU THAT HE TRULY LOVES YOUR SOUL.
From my prayer closet to yours. 🤭 May Jesus covers you in your darkest secrets and make you powerful in your testimony.
“May the Lord make your love increase and overflow for each other and for everyone else, just as ours does for you.” 1 Thessalonians 3:12 NIV
“My lips will shout for joy when I sing praise to you— I whom you have delivered.” Psalms 71:23 NIV